Medge, I'm so sorry. I know how attached we get to our bettas. They are so full of personality, and they do seem to like the colors on the computer screen; at least mine does. My bettas that I have now are on the kitchen counter and they keep me company as I work on the computer. I don't know how I would get along without them. The previous bettas that I had were unique too. I still miss them very much. When I got my new ones, the ones I have now, I did find that getting a different color from the previous ones made me feel not so "guilty". Medge, don't worry about when you will be ready for another betta. The right one will steal your heart, even though you still miss Nomen. When my previous two bettas died, I waited for almost a month before I got two more.