I'm not sure what I said that gave you that impression. I can understand about the whole "I don't care about them" thing. I still think it's a little presumptuous to just assume that I meant I'd kill them if it saved me some effort.
Not that it matters, but in order to keep from being any more upset about the fish dying in my tank, I attempt to look at the tank as the hobby instead of the fish as pets. Maybe when things are going well I'll allow myself to get attached to them. If that's wrong in your eyes, then so be it. Had I actually sat down and thought about the fish I've killed I'd be sick. I try to be objective about it, but certainly not cruel.
It's a tough hobby, and when you're getting started it takes a fairly tough sensitivity level... at least, for me. That doesn't mean that I don't try to prevent the fish from suffering when I can, though.
92-gallon corner tank, 100lbs of LR
, 140lbs of sand, 250watt 10,000K MH
, 110watts of actinic PCs, Mag 7 return, custom refugium, AquaC EV180 w/ Mag 5
Female lyretail anthias, eyelash blenny, tomato clown, saddleback clown, firefish goby, 2 sand-sifting stars