*~*~*~ Disclaimer: I'm stressed and whining to ya'll... its long and I don't blame you if you don't read it.. i just need to get it all off my chest
I first want to say that I havn't been posting as much as normal cuz i am so insanly stressed. I read some and vote everyday... but other than that ive been neglecting.
I am taking 19 hours this semester and there is *always* something. If its not spanish homework.. its an ecology take home test... or math homework... or a lab report.... or a book to read for history... and a test in this class... and a test in that class... and no sleep here... waking up at 3am to study there.... *and repeat*
And normally about this time I would say "Its okay, summer is almost here". But no.. im taking a maymester (three weeks straight of one three hour class) and 11 hours over the summer of Organic Chemistry (which even tho is says its only 11 hours... its more like 15-18). And then back to two more semesters of 19/20 hours. This is all so I can graduate next may. My next big break from school will be next December
If I don't graduate next may... I have to wait another year (because of the teaching thing... the program im on makes it difficult to start at a random time in the year).
Im so close to obtaining the goal of graduation its driving me nuts. So many things depend on me graduating... er, not depend... but can't happen until I do so. I can't/won't get married until after I graduate (which I want to do oh-so-badly!), I can't get a job until then (there are NO
jobs in Denton... even if I had the time to have a job, its not like id find one), I can't buy a house until then...I will finally be financially free from my parents........ and i'd have dental insurance hehe.
And I know other people have been under more stressful things... but this is what im dealing with at the moment... and I am so terribly stressed.
Tonight is the first good break Ive had from having to do anything.. or worry about doing anything... and I need to do laundry, fish maintance, cat maintance, clean house on top of having to do math homework as well as an ecology take home test for monday. And to top it off.. i think im getting sick. And this is my first "good break" if that tells you anything.
I also have the stress of finding a new place to live. Our lease is up in July (maybe June.. the landlord wrote June on the lease when it should be July)... Stephen and I don't know at the moment if its going to be just us... or if our roommate Allison is going to be roommates again. Then there is finding a place that fits all our needs.... and taking apart the tanks... man, I dread that! (BTW
- the landlord waived that nasty fee I was telling ya'll about before).
you would think all this stress would help me lose weight... nope, in fact im gaining weight.. my clothes are getting somewhat tight... and im so financially strapped... as well as having no time to cook that I don't know what to do as far as diets go... I tried counting my calorie intake for a while... but then midterms hit.. which meant all nighters, comfort food and caffine *sigh* It's not that I don't have the will power to diet... all my will power is being sucked up by school
Okay, im going to stop whinning now and go do something productive. Thanks for listening/reading... I just had to get all that out.
*hugs you guys*