Maybe it just isn't the time yet. I know it wasn't for me a while back, and i waited until i had the money and the time to support my tank and it's needs, being a first year college student and all.. and having no job.
But this is ok. At least you know what it is that you want in the future, and you are researching in order to obtain it. One thing i will say, is that even if the SW
journey stops here, it doesn't mean your research has to. Research will only make you smarter of the SW
hobby, and will make you better prepared for anything that may come your way. I currently don't have a tank, but i still research constantly on new equipment that comes out, new creatures, and so much more. Research is endless.
I do hope you eventually come back to SW
because this is an endlessly rewarding hobby.
Good Luck and don't stop researching!