Convict2161
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Bad weekend, house fires, bad car accident 2 fatal... Another house fire, fire in the basement. Crashed my chiefs truck going to a 3 car accident rollover with reported victims thrown from the vehicle. My friend who's only 29 years old is dying of cancer... I come home from work and I stare at my tanks and I don't even feel like looking at them.
I don't wanna do water changes, I don't wanna do anything... Just a bad bad weekend. I've been tested and I have been weighed. I have passed but not sure why... Maybe getting too deep here but it's got to mean something.
Life.. It's funny ya know? You do what ya can to help people and sometimes it's not enough. I've saved lives and yes there have been times when I could not. I do what I do because I love it. But then wonder why? I'm here for a reason, I must be. I feel like I've neglected my tanks and been a bad bad fish keeper. I have done my water changes when I had a minute but in the back of my head were the horrible accidents and house fires. And I'm complaining about a water change? People dying, friends dying. A whole family died today, from 80 years old to 10. A van full of a family just taken form this earth. An here I am complaining about my job? It's what I do..
I go into the unknown. I put my men and women in harms way everyday and I'm the guy they all look up too. I'm not even sure where I'm going with this, guess I just needed to vent. I've made some good friends here and I thank you all for just... Well just listening. I just feel bad for letting the job effect my hobby. I almost feel like saying. If you want my tanks, come and get them. You do all the work. Pick it up, empty it whatever just come get them. My wife is telling me not too but at the moment my mind of racing and I just don't see the point right now.
Thanks for listening.
I'm a fire chief, EMT. I'm part of the Haz-Mat team and special operations team,I'm on the technical rescue team, I'm the guy everyone goes to for answers. I just had a multi state incident with a suspicious white powder in the mail. It was huge. maybe a bit overwhelmed. I just needed to get this off my chest.
Tomorrow I'm waking up and forgive me for bringing religion into this but I will thank god for the day and embrace it. I will do my water changes, tell my son and wife I love them and do the jobs that are handed to me.
Thanks again for your ear...
God bless each and everyone of you.
I don't wanna do water changes, I don't wanna do anything... Just a bad bad weekend. I've been tested and I have been weighed. I have passed but not sure why... Maybe getting too deep here but it's got to mean something.
Life.. It's funny ya know? You do what ya can to help people and sometimes it's not enough. I've saved lives and yes there have been times when I could not. I do what I do because I love it. But then wonder why? I'm here for a reason, I must be. I feel like I've neglected my tanks and been a bad bad fish keeper. I have done my water changes when I had a minute but in the back of my head were the horrible accidents and house fires. And I'm complaining about a water change? People dying, friends dying. A whole family died today, from 80 years old to 10. A van full of a family just taken form this earth. An here I am complaining about my job? It's what I do..
I go into the unknown. I put my men and women in harms way everyday and I'm the guy they all look up too. I'm not even sure where I'm going with this, guess I just needed to vent. I've made some good friends here and I thank you all for just... Well just listening. I just feel bad for letting the job effect my hobby. I almost feel like saying. If you want my tanks, come and get them. You do all the work. Pick it up, empty it whatever just come get them. My wife is telling me not too but at the moment my mind of racing and I just don't see the point right now.
Thanks for listening.
I'm a fire chief, EMT. I'm part of the Haz-Mat team and special operations team,I'm on the technical rescue team, I'm the guy everyone goes to for answers. I just had a multi state incident with a suspicious white powder in the mail. It was huge. maybe a bit overwhelmed. I just needed to get this off my chest.
Tomorrow I'm waking up and forgive me for bringing religion into this but I will thank god for the day and embrace it. I will do my water changes, tell my son and wife I love them and do the jobs that are handed to me.
Thanks again for your ear...
God bless each and everyone of you.