update with my cancer battle

[54seaweed]

after 3 hard battles I'm getting weak
found out last Monday it is back again
they told me this time it will be radiation therapy and there are a few big risks
to be concerned about , I could loose my speech permanently, I could be paralyzed due to radiation as cancer is on the base of the tongue along with my spinal cord , or I could just out right die
they sure know how to cherry coat things
Ive been through a lot in the past 12 years
I haven't been around much the last few weeks and most likely I will be gone
even more in the next few weeks ,
I feel my time is scarce so I intend to spend as much of it as I can with my daughter and my wife ,
I will pop in from time to time if I am able

all the hard stuff will start next week so yes I will try to be around to say my good byes

john
aka
54seaweed

 

[fort384]

John, Best of luck, keep fighting. We'll be thinking about you.

 

[severum mama]

Thinking of you and your family. Best wishes for successful treatment.

 

[bribo12]

Definitely praying for ya buddy. Hope everything is ok


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[10gal_nano]

Good luck man. Hope everything turns out good. Good luck. Praying for you


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[Mama Karoti]

Wishing you the best outcome possible. Keep fighting.


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[Angela1108]

sad to hear. Good luck!!


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[Bichir Bro]

Dude don't give up! It can be beat! God will guide you through it, remember to always have faith in him and remember he's always by your side! Some nights it's very comforting to know that Jesus is in my heart and God is watching above us all and protecting us. Just keep your faith in him and fight it! I'm for sure Praying for you, your strength and family!


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[Brookster123]

Stay positive and keep moving! Youre obviously a fighter and you shall overcome this!

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[DragonFish71]

Keep strong and good luck.

 

[Macscale]

Oh Seaweed, this is terrible.
Definitely sending good energy to you. I'd hate to not have you on here to too talk to.
Good Luck, You can do it.

 

[aqua_chem]

Are you at the U? If so, I have a great deal of confidence in our oncology teams, having worked with some of them in the past. I'm sure that they'll take good care of you here.

 

[Autumnsky]

Hi John,

You are a tough one, I will say that. It is hard to be strong all the time. Your family is the most important.

Thank you for being here for us and with us. If there is anything I can help with let me know, I will do what I can.

I will keep you in my prayers, and your family.

 

[BBradbury]

Your Battle

Hello John...

No clue what you're going through. Can only imagine. A tough ordeal. I have a friend who's going through "Flight Training" too. Hopefully, the trip isn't one that's too difficult.

What can I say?

From another Coloradoan.

B

 

[54seaweed]

had first radiation throats burning big time feel like @#$% ,
really not looking forward to 24 more days of this ,
I noticed I said this was my third battle actually its my 4th time around ,
if I feel this bad on my first day how am I going to feel on day 25
my daughter (20yrs) said she don't like the out look of this radiation as she can see it in my eyes already , and she also read about all the side effects and yes a lot of them are bad , this cancer just don't give up ,
wife is looking to call my oncologist to see if maybe I could go back on kemo pill that I would need to take 4 once a day for the rest of my life ,instead of the radiation not fun getting up at 4am everyday to drive a hour and half to and from hospital,
no AQUA-CHEM not at the U , its Kaiser at Franklin

well gotta go bout to pass out again

Thanks everyone for caring

JOHN

 

[54seaweed]

well 3 radiation sessions done I no longer can speak , I'm so dieing for a smoke haven't had one since weds , they told my wife I'll need extensive speech theropy once treatment is done. between not being able to talk eating nothing but baby food sucks too
barley any energy , starting to wonder if my end is near because the way I feel is very strange. I want to talk but nothing comes out just a big squeaking sound

 

[Autumnsky]

Hey John,

It sounds agonizing, physically and emotionally. I can't even imagine how you are able to deal with it, and your family too. You are strong, maybe getting tired of being strong, but strong. God be with you to strengthen you.

Maybe get some nicotine patches. Sounds like Popsicle time and some soothing ice packs. Maybe you can make some nutrient rich frozen treats to nourish you and sooth your throat.

My heart is heavy with your burden. Keeping you and your family in prayer.

Thank you for letting us know how it is going.

 

[54seaweed]

Hello everyone ,
This is John's Wife , John asked me to pass this along , after 6 treatments me and john decided to stop his treatment due to him now being paralyzed on his left side , they must have hit his spinal cord with the laser , John is in a bad state of depression between not being able to speak and not being able to move his left side , I so very much feel it was my fault as I kept on telling him it would be a walk in the park ,
we will be going to a spinal cord specialist some time next week ,
Thank you everyone for your prayers
he's been a fighter but I see how it is wearing him down
please keep the prayers going as he needs as much as he can
I have a few important calls to make today if things change I will try to let you all know
Marybeth................................................................

 

[Autumnsky]

Thank you for sharing. I am sending regular prayers for you all. And for strength.

 

[Macscale]

That's absolutely terrible.
Hopefully he will recover, sending good energy.